I just got home from the spending the day at the beach with friends. While I was heading over the bridge, I was struck by how breathtaking the brillian blue water and sky looked. The next thought was , "I love the beach, I live less than a half hour away, I have all summer off....why has it been 4 years since I've been here?" People who live near a beach can become immune to the allure of the sea, just like people who live near the Rockies grow accostommed to their majesty. I think part of the human condition can be discontent with where we are placed - many want more or different or "better".
That made me start thinking about my classroom and the future. Many times throughout the years, I've been asked, "Why don't you become an administrator?" or "When are you going to get out of the classroom?" After a while, it's hard NOT to start to wonder if there is something better out there or if being content in the classroom means I'm unmotivated. However, just like I am going to be more content with the beautiful place I live - I am not going to feel less accomplished just because my goal is to not leave the classroom. Now, I'm thankful that some people are intended to be administrators (like it or not, they are a valuable resource). I am also thankful that I am not one of them. I've been teaching for 24 years and I am still as excited about a new year starting as I was my first year of teaching. I get such pleasure from my students - they have blessed my life in immeasurable ways throughout the years. Every child has a place in my heart forever No matter how many gray hairs they gave me throughout the year, the last day of every school year has been bittersweet. I am proud of what they have accomplished and at the same time, I know I will miss them. The following school year always starts with me questioning if I'll ever love this group of kids like I loved last year's class. Yet, something magical happens within the first few weeks, and I can't imagine my class without each child present.
Anyway, this long post is to say that I am never again going to wonder about where I belong. I TEACH. I am a teacher to the very core of my being. I think I always have been. I don't own a home, or a fancy car or lots of "stuff". I am content right with the life I have been granted. I don't need to wonder if I should be doing more. There is nothing MORE than the privilege of growing young hearts and minds.